about dream, love,and home.

this morning i have wake up without sore eyes, n didn't dream something, i only know, i missing some one today. she is my firs love who  lives near me. i always see her when she goes or comes from school. my days feel same. the fast and future i fill also. if the heart is always searching, can i find another home? i look her in my eyes, everything i fill so right. but, if i find another home, i fill right just for a moment, not forever I've been fill. do you know what is her name?? 'AMANDA" who is some one i always looking for in my days. i don't want let her go. but I MUST,, will her know about it? i have to write down what on my own brain i feel so tired, but i can't remove all about her.. this day is 3years when i loosed her. how long will i be waiting? no body know, and me too. the reason why i still loving you because i really really have true love for you.. please look me in the eyes, and say, you;re love me.. it's be my happiness  come true. i know she with another guys, and also i know she was did something that i want to say F***k.. well, everything will be fine.. it's sported me under the problem. fortunately i have to love you even though just for a while, but thank you for your love gave to me. now find your heaven with him. and  i pray i can also. you're the light make my darkness disappear, you're the only one way that i want to walk. you're the subway i want to go.. let me go home now.. that place isn't another home.. but that place is you..